May 31, 2011


distressed about hades
worried about failing
desire so strong
oh the draft, oh current
have you ever felt you are so many pieces that you don't exist
so many layers
it never ends.  please end.
i don't want to die.  i do.  i don't.
is it my imagination running wild beside me like my youth
i was always good at that, i am good at that
please someone tell me i am not crazy or tell me that i am
end this.
careful carefree care where have you gone
care - it holds me down
i want to be good i want to be awful
i want to be.
empress of deceit
or am i eve
reality is harsh but my dreams torment me as being harsher
ghosts of the innocence haunt
without slumber
i scare myself the most