September 29, 2005
Yesterday was my baby's birthday. He turned one. I was reminiscent all day yesterday. The day Levi was born was not the best day of my life, but the moment he was born was probably the best moment of my life. So God's gotten us through the first year of parenting. It been busy, but fun.
Everything is sure looking up compared to two weeks ago.
September 19, 2005
Knowing I was coming in here I went out and bought 2 pairs of glow in the dark pajamas and a soft, light pink, fluffy robe.
Thanks for your prayers and stuff. I haven't really replied to any E-mails or anything. I am kinda tied down. But thanks for your E-mails and comments! God Bless!
September 15, 2005
I talked to the nurse and she set up an appointment for me this Friday. But when I was talking to her she said that I will probably need an I.V. and to "pack a bag."
So I am pretty bummed about that. Being in the hospital has been some of the worst times of my life. They don't really treat you well. (To those of you have never been.) And when you are in there for awhile, you start to not even feel like a human being. You kinda feel like a pin cushion for a bunch of tests that never really tell you anything at all.
Then, you can't shower because of the I.V. So you feel yucky. And when you're in the hospital people come visit, which is hard and sometimes not fun when you're tired, drugged, sick, stressed, yucky and stinky.
But the hardest part is being separated from my family. I miss Seth and Levi SO much while I am there. It makes me cry just thinking about it. And Levi is too little to explain things to, which is hard. I am always worried that during those two weeks (or longer) that I am there he will feel abandoned by me. ( Even though I do know my parents will take good care of him.)
It's hard on Seth too. When he stays the night, sometimes he sleeps on the hard hospital floor. I feel so bad for him!!!!
Anyway, I could go on and on in self pity but, I know that God can get me through it. Just as He has the times before.
And this too shall pass...
September 09, 2005
My left arm keeps getting REALLY stiff. So I examine it and there are two fang marks that look like this: .. So I know we a have a spider problem and I have two big red welts on my leg as well. So I type in and search it on the internet. I ended up at a brown recluse site. It talked about stiffness, and "satellite bites" (which I have) and it starts rotting your skin away.
So I'm thinking, okay it's probably not a brown recluse. But then I see on the website the antibiotics they use to treat recluse bites I am already regularly on!!!! So now I'm thinking that it might be.
So I am telling this to my dad, and he is like, "I saw a brown recluse at your house one time!" Now it's got me really thinking!!! So we killed one of them, (which is brown) and were looking on it's back for the trademark "violin." We saw markings, but it was too little and shriveled to tell. so we tore apart our house. Crazy cleaning...and we're not done yet!
The funny thing is Seth hasn't gotten bit once, and he sleeps right next to me. He says I'm spider candy.
September 07, 2005
September 06, 2005
Last Sunday was my birthday. Seth threw a big surprise party. He invited more people than could fit in our tiny house. (It's a good thing some of the people couldn't make it because we would've been like sardines.) I had so much fun! I haven't had a birthday party like that since I was a kid, and I felt like a kid, ripping through the presents. (At least I felt like I was ripping through 'em... every one else was like "hurry up.")
Anyway, everyone went all out and I felt very blessed. It's nice to be reminded every once in awhile that there's people who love you, even if you don't see them all the time.