Last Sunday I started feeling pretty bad. I got a fever and stuff related to my Cystic Fibrosis. Then I got
really short of breath and it felt as though part of my lung has been closed off or something. So on Tuesday I called the doc, and let them know what was going on....
I talked to the nurse and she set up an appointment for me this Friday. But when I was talking to her she said that I will probably need an I.V. and to "pack a bag."
So I am pretty bummed about that. Being in the hospital has been some of the worst times of my life. They don't really treat you well. (To those of you have never been.) And when you are in there for awhile, you start to not even feel like a human being. You kinda feel like a pin
cushion for a bunch of tests that never really tell you anything at all.
Then, you can't shower because of the I.V. So you feel yucky. And when
you're in the hospital people come visit, which is hard and sometimes not fun when
you're tired, drugged, sick, stressed, yucky and stinky.
But the hardest part is being separated from my family. I miss Seth and Levi
SO much while I am there. It makes me cry just thinking about it. And Levi is too little to explain things to, which is hard. I am always worried that during those two weeks (or longer) that I am there he will feel abandoned by me. ( Even though I do know my parents will take good care of him.)
It's hard on Seth too. When he stays the night, sometimes he sleeps on the hard hospital floor. I feel so bad for him!!!!
Anyway, I could go on and on in self pity but, I know that God can get me through it. Just as He has the times before.
And this too shall pass...